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maynotbethebestkarmayouwilleverget
itsjustthecoincidentalresultthatyouwillget
itsnotthatyouareexpectingforthatreward
youhelppeopletoomuchandtoogood that
youdontevenknowhowtosolveyourownproblems
thatsmyproblem
ijustneedthextrawill
mindheartsoulwarmth
love
thatswhatresembledtheneedofmine
resembling
thespecialonethatidonthingwilleverhappen
goodcaretakebye
the so much me
today
sick and tired
still cant get things off
old stuff
A little bit too much
so much for the friendship which you yourself claim,
and then denying it for the sake of escapin from truth,
Wth
"Pure Morning"
A friend in needs a friend indeed,
A friend with weed is better,
A friend with breasts and all the rest,
A friend who's dressed in leather,
A friend in needs a friend indeed,
A friend who'll tease is better ,
Our thoughts compressed,
Which makes us blessed,
And makes for stormy weather,
A friend in needs a friend indeed,
My Japanese is better,
And when she's pressed she will undress,
And then she's boxing clever,
really?
i'm not fine or happy
cause it will never happen for sure
just a mask with hidden truth
like a snail forgetting its shell
the shell thought that the snail is happy now
therfore
she was happy that the snail was have forget bout her
but in real truth,
the snail was never happy
cause the snail will never forget his shell
even after finding a new shell
Gap
So put a spanner in the works,
"You're mine,"
It's easier to work,
But I don't mind,
You're bitter in defeat so,
Just don't try
To take away all the things
I'll do in my life.
I have to break down all
the corners of the world.
Don't heap this praise on me,
I know I don't deserve it.
But what's so this I see?
Yeah you're leaving right beside me,
And I miss you, and I need you.
I do
today
what will i do now?
all gone
days been suck up
i'll just focus
on what i do best
\i think
its time for some appreciation
nothing more
what fuck
i've done for the day
you lost one you gain
i've done changing for the better,
accomplished
but for what use anyway
its for the better
but for what?
done searching
giving up
maybe you don't really know
what my true intention are,
the true meaning for the past post
enjoy
great life of yours
Why?
- wanted to start a new
- but somehow things starts where it all begins.
- why does everything i want to forget
- appear back all of a sudden
- its been difficult
- my mask shows usually contradict the feeling i had.
- so whats going to happen?
- lies after lies
- what if i were to start a new again.
- will this happen again?
The truth about the "catalyst"

the truth
the catalyst that causes a trigger at first
never thought that the catalyst might appear again
despite knowing its has already spread its true intention to another person
it appear when i everything was ok and when life is pretty occupied
It caught my eye
the feeling that once fade,
grew back
it needed help
so i went to
but somehow i know its true intention
was somehow sucking out this juice of anxiety and love
when it needed it
and put me aside
when its lovebug cam back
so you judge it.
just to say i misses the catalyst
it was not mine from the start.
it was just my intuition that bite my consciousness